Day 21!
I visited my grandmother yesterday...and the following is a semi-poemed version of my actual conversation with her.
I hope this poem reads like love and heartache, because that's how it feels.
Conversations with my grandmother
Hi Pussycat!
You said you would be
here in 30 minutes and here you are!
That wasn't 30
minutes.
You drive fast.
You're a speed demon.
You look so good, Baruch Hashem.
I move the walker aside
lean over the brown recliner,
and kiss her cheek.
Hi, Bubby.
How are you?
Better now that you're
here.
You look good,
kenahora.
I don't remember you
being so beautiful.
Were you always so
beautiful?
I think I just don't
remember.
We're blessed,
right?
Kenahora, you look
good.
Just like your Bubby,
right?
She laughs.
What's your name
again?
I'm Laura. Steve's daughter.
You're looking good,
Bubby.
How are you feeling?
I have a new
chair. And the girls come and take care
of me.
They always take care.
I didn't want them, but
I'm grateful they do good.
Don't tell Steve.
I just do it for
him. I don't need them, but I do it for
him.
He worries.
We all worry.
We all worry about
everything.
She pauses.
What can I do for
you?
I can't do a damn thing, but I can
offer.
You look so good,
kenahora.
You got skinny.
Did you get skinny?
I like your new
chair.
Is it comfortable?
Betty came by the other
day. You know, she always complains.
I talk to Ruthie on the
phone a couple times a day.
You know, they tell me
I can't drive anymore.
Do you drive? Do you live in a
house?
I can't believe how
beautiful you are, kenahora.
I do drive. And I do live in a house.
Dad told me Betty was
in the hospital.
Is she feeling
better?
Who told you that?
Who's your father?
Steve, Bubby.
Your son, Steve.
Who?
You talk to him?
Why do you talk to him?
Which one are you
again?
I don't know, was Betty
in the hospital?
I can't remember,
kid.
I just can't get over
how beautiful you are.
Your hair, kenahora, you
have good hair.
Do you go to shul?
Do you have a shul near
you?
I'm sure there's a
shul near me, Bubby.
Do you drive?
Can you drive yourself
to shul?
You go to shul. Sometimes, right?
We all go to shul
sometimes?
You know it's
shabbos.
I'm not supposed to be
watching television, but I do it anyway.
It's okay. Right?
We do what we can.
We all do what we
can, Bubby.
So when are you getting
married?
Whenever I meet the
right person, Bubby.
The right person is
hard to find, you know?
So it'll happen when it
happens,
and if it doesn't, so
be it, right?
I laugh.
I guess that's right.
We're all going to
Sara's wedding in August.
That will be fun,
won't it?
Who?
Which one are you
again?
Baruch Hashem, we're
all good.
It's good to be good,
for the thing there.
I'm so glad you came.
I'm feeling so much
better.
You said 30 minutes and
then you were here.
You're a speed demon. We won't tell Daddy.
We'll keep it our
secret, right?
You don't go to shul.
That's okay.
You're Jewish in your
heart, right?
Baruch Hashem.
You're Jewish in your
heart.
I don't think you've always
been this beautiful.
Your hair, my God, look
at your hair.
I got my good hair
from you, didn't I, Bubby?
Of course,
Pussycat.
You're beautiful, just
like your Bubby.
She puts her hand over her heart.
You're Jewish in your
heart?
We're all Jewish in our
hearts.
I think we're all
Jewish in our hearts.
Yes, Bubby, I say.
I put my hand over my heart.
Yes.
Baruch Hashem,
I'm Jewish in my heart.
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In case you need assistance with the language in this post:
Bubby - Yiddish word for Grandmother
Baruch Hashem - Hebrew for "Thank God"
Kenahora - This is Yiddish...and it's kinda hard to put my finger on exactly what it means. It's almost like a "knock on wood" type of saying, I think, It literally translates to something like "without the evil eye" and is sometimes accompanied by spitting.
Shul - Synagogue (it's Yiddish...and apparently used primarily by Jews of Ashkenazi descent. Thanks, Google!).
Shabbos - Jewish sabbath. Technically, because it is the Sabbath, Jews aren't supposed to use electricity or do any "work" Friday evening through Saturday evening (hence her comment that she's not supposed to be watching television).
"For the thing there"....this is just a phrase that my grandmother tags on to nearly everything she says.