Saturday, June 20, 2015

Day 14: Letters to myself to be read next time I freak out about wearing a bathing suit in public

Letters to myself to be read next time I freak out about wearing a bathing suit in public

1. Dear Me,
Going to the swimming pool is not the same as going to war.
Please, breathe deeply:
bathing suits are not your enemy.
In the same way your body has never been beach-body perfect,
it has always been beach-body perfect,
remind yourself --
there is no danger here.

2. Dear Me,
I would rather die than speak to a child the way I speak to you.
It would never cross my mind to do to anyone
what I have done to you,
I know
you do not deserve my wrath
you were never meant to be hurt.
I'm sorry.

3. Dear Me,
Your body is not wrong
this costume is not a cone of shame,
not a dunce cap,
not a uniform meant to display all evidence
of your failures
it is merely
a piece of clothing to go swimming in.
Treat it as such.

4. Dear Me,
No one is looking
no one is judging
no one is waiting
to shame you,
all of this was already done 
before you stepped away
from the mirror.

5. Dear Me,
You are a woman
who can wear a bathing suit in public.
The water cannot possibly
be as cold and deep
as you imagine.  

1 comment:

  1. thank you. I will say this to myself next time.

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